i want to sing you a love song

I don't know why but this feelin' keeps comin' back and I hate it. I hate this feelin'. I hate this feelin because it brings me so much pain. I hate this feelin' because it made me regret my past. I hate this feelin' because it made me realize how stupid I am for being doubtful with this feelin' before, for not doing my best to win you and make you love me, and for not taking my chance well. I hate this feelin' because it makes me wonder how it feels like to be in your sweet embrace. I hate this feelin' because it made me think of the 'what ifs'. I hate this feelin' because no matter how big my desire to wipe it out I can't take it away, it just keeps comin' back. I hate this feelin' because I can't control it, why do I keep on loving you? If only...

If only you are mine, I want to sing you a love song.

I Want to Sing You a Love Song
by Anne Murray

There's a wren in a willow wood flies so high sings so good
And he brings to you what he sings to you
Like my brother the Wren and I well he told me if I try
I could fly for you and I want to try for you cause

I want to sing you a love song
I want to rock you in my arms all night long
I want to get to know you I want to show you
The peaceful feeling of my home

Summer thunder on moon bright days northern lights and skies ablaze
I'll bring to you love when I sing to you
Silver wings in a fiery sky show the trail of our love
And I'll sing to you love is what I bring to you
I want to sing to you

P.S. if you happen to read this post just please ignore it. i know you are very happy now. i am just writing this because i just want to be honest with myself sometimes. i feel like a person full of pretension, pretending to be strong outside even if i'm fainting in the inside. at least here, i have the courage to be me, to pour out my real emotions. i love you even now. take care always.