the rocky choleric

The personality tests I had undergone all revealed that I am a choleric - the extrovert, the doer and the optimist. I never doubt and I had always been convinced that I am a choleric. I am high-spirited and I always carry within me that optimism other personalities do not have. I am goal-oriented and I always see to it that I am doing the things that needed to be done in order to reach the goal that I have set. Indeed, I am a choleric.

But examining the way I live my life a year the past years, starting on the day I graduated college, I couldn't find the typical me.

Where is that Mr. Choleric other had known for so long? Most of the decisions I had made in the past years where just done because circumstances ask them. As if I don't have the strength and the will, I am just letting the wind carry me to whatever direction it blows. Where is that goal-oriented me? I had lost the confidence I naturally exude. I had been doubtful with myself whether I can make into realization the things I had envisioned. Where is that person so optimistic that would not care any obstacle that may come into his way? Where is that person that despite facing many trials and problems, still, at the end of the day he is there standing full of energy and guts to continue? Where is he now?

I believe he was lost in his journey, after all, it's not a perfect world we are living, it's not a perfect life we are playing. He was lost and had taken a detour in his journey.  But now, he's ready to be on the right track again. And he's the rocky choleric, and forever he will be!